Action

::This is a meditation on the nature of self and of happiness written in the early hours of a late summer day in 2017::

It is not that there is a better me waiting to be attained through action; but instead, there is a being whom I have chosen to be in coherence with our seemingly instinctual, primal urge to act; as a means to provide ourselves with experiencing the natural most joyful and best state you can be whilst maintaining that lesser self.

If I am to teach, I would desire only to serve as a conducive, flexible, and fluid resistance against the dominant parts of the student. I would wish to evoke a pressure to redirect your heart and mind to the center that is you- inward, that is you.

Everything about this world that you wish to attach to, or as we see it, add to the repertoire of our personality- It is that very thing which pushed us away from that center, from our innermost and best selves.

But it is a consuming spiral; the image most appropriate and remarkable, our own galaxy- its extremities are spiraling into the center of it all. This vacuum resistance propelling us, curving us from being straight and outward in our direction, in our purpose, in our imagination, and now changing that direction back inward for the purpose to fulfill the need to know the self, to find and be the self, the ultimate self you aspire to be.

The smallest bits of us that surrender into the self, into the center, spiraling across the edge and slowly devoured into nothingness. A tunnel of fictitious waste disintegrating an immeasurable mass at each moment.

The smallest stars, smaller than our own, as forgotten dreams. Waiting and wasted of its power, for a yet brighter star, a yet bigger, to believe that there is a greater life to be achieved by a larger source of the same light. The smaller ones are filled with pressure and tension and gravity and its all so very uncomfortable to imply you could survive on such fanatical ideas. So the bigger stars, they're easy to see, they cover more ground, leaving you enough room for safety. Enough of a guarantee that you won't tend to anything less, and it becomes dust all the same and all instantaneously as the power of love is removed from it.

These bigger notions, on the farthest reaches of the universe, as a firework bursting in the air and light is rocketing out in all directions, straight and outward, filled with pride and vigor. But a fire that burns for an eternity, that expands constantly, that becomes more and more endlessly. This fire containing all that is suddenly realizes that in order to be more of itself, it must be less. Lighten the load. Let some of the debris settle off and its ember be snuffed out by the vacuum of space. Then comes the curve, the realizing of self, the realizing of truth, the becoming of self. Curves and curves until its pointing inward and realizing that it was always what it wanted to be. There was nothing ever to achieve.

The liberty conceived of such imaginings of how it is, makes for an almost tribal beckoning to detach from the world. It is not a notion or practice of a better person. It is not the outcome of long term dedication. It is not even something one can hold with them as an ideology if they are to detach from this world; the ideology that our truest selves are not of this physical dimension.

So to imagine that the best part of you, who is waiting for you to realize itself, cannot be achieved by acting in this world. Many lesser and functional and successful versions can arise as mediators for bringing the higher self into the environment of the lesser self. And it can very well seem as though you have made out with everything you wanted, yet it remains still that you are maintaining a lesser self whose disguise physically mimics that intangible ideology of the highest self.

Knowing this, I have considered that only non-physical experiences can come close to the truth of a self that is non-physical; whether next best or the best. Emotions are largely non-physical, the small fraction of its physicality is portrayed through expressions of those emotions like crying or yelling. So that larger, non-physical part, is what I'll focus on, as opposed to feeling justified in any spontaneous expression of those sudden emotions.

Much like in my tendency to give 100% attention to the expression of the emotion, rather then the emotion itself, I am always shy of the win. Nevertheless, I try and try again, reaching to enrich my life endlessly, by hoping to achieve an emotional and mental balance through physical means.

In other words; when I want a fuller and richer experience, I am sure that my then established state of mind and emotion are the result of and the goal of the preceding action, when in fact they are operate and essential systems in producing the end result.

To say differently, you cannot involve yourself in a situation without including your emotional and mental states AS PLAYING FACTORS in the outcome of your actions. You cannot exclude your state of mind and emotion from contributing tremendously to the result of your decisions.

So with this in mind; the fact that my emotions and my mental state is readily and tremendously involved in the outcome of my actions, of my decisions- what shall I do next? Will the next decision I make come from a state of need, of lack, saying 'I don't feel well so, I'll go and get some ice cream and I'll feel a little better, a little uplifted'? or will we align our emotions and thoughts differently and say, from a state of preemptive joy 'today has been a great day, let's top it off with some ice cream'?

This fundamental understanding will facilitate, will breed, will exude well being for you in your life.

When I begin to apply my emotion and mental state into my decision making, I will find my own logic cannot convince me to make a decision that I don't feel good about making. I find that my own, possibly strict, set of values and beliefs will somehow have some wiggle room to make for an easier process in producing outcomes. The experience comes of feeling good before making a decision.

It is in this way, we can achieve a state that is more natural and therefore more joyful, and so liberated, simply by willing ourselves into a higher emotional state, as opposed to a higher physical accomplishment.

It is then that our actions are not made to gain anything from their playing out. There is simply an expression of your natural self into the physical world. There is no emotional dependence on those physical accomplishments, be in the form of a important title or a home with a family. Yet at the same time, those dreams we once attached to will play themselves out in our lives. We will get to experience those dreams unhindered from the state of our natural selves.

The action of experiencing your dreams, the action of what it takes to play your part, comes as a result, an effortless result, of aligning with your higher self through higher states of emotion.



    That which you will not affirm as true of yourself can never be realized by you for that attitude alone is the necessary condition by which you realize your goal. 
                    - Neville Goddard, The Power of Awareness